Know Me See Me by Hinsel Meyer

Derek

With everyone around me falling in love, I’ve never been more certain that I want the complete opposite. I don’t want love, I don’t need love. It doesn’t matter that my heart skips a beat whenever my best friend smiles at me. Nope, I don’t want love at all. But the universe decided that what I want doesn’t matter, because my best friend kisses me, shows me what I’m missing—what my friends found—then immediately breaks my heart.

Hawk

My brother is a dumbass. A drunk dumbass most of the time, and thanks to him I just f***ed up the best friendship I’ve ever had. But I have a plan. And the plan goes perfectly, until it makes me realize that patching up my friendship with Derek is not all I want. What I want is much, much more. I want everything.
The only problem is when I think I’m well on my way to getting exactly that, my dumbass brother strikes again.