In My Dreams by Caz May

Ryan
When the guy I’ve been in love with for years-my best friend Jebediah-gets married, I stupidly fall down the rabbit hole of getting it on with a random hot as hades stranger after the wedding. Logan blamed our hookup on his being drunk, telling me he’s straight, and no one can know we kissed and hooked up. But even if he was drunk Logan was into me, and I’m definitely into him. He admitted things to me, in the throes of passion, feelings that he swore he’d never told anyone about feeling, and told me to never tell anyone. He’s practically ghosting me now, admitting he can’t be with me because he can’t let anyone know the secrets he’s hiding. I’ve got no one to tell Logan’s secrets to anyway, and I’m never going to see him again in reality. The only place I can be with Logan now is in my dreams.

Logan
Seeing my best friend Aidan all loved up and happy at a wedding of our mutual friends from high school, when I’m still harbouring feelings for him and my girlfriend of four years has just broken up with me is the pits. She blames me for my wandering eye, but I’ve been hiding my secret feelings and desires for years and she’s only just started to notice because we’re at the point in our lives that our friends are getting married and having babies. And I honestly can’t think of anything I’d rather not do than marry someone I don’t love. All I wanted to do at this wedding was get drunk, and hookup with a hot, willing stranger, that I didn’t have to care about in the light of day. But when hiding in the shadows, and not facing reality becomes too much after hooking up I’m forced to face a situation I never dreamed of and I have to focus on growing up and only being my true self in my dreams.