Her Envy by C. M. Raven

In loving you, I am betraying her.

Amelie Degard

My father taught me the most important skills in life: Identifying a person’s drivers & weaknesses and later on how to weaponize them. Early on, I became someone who was needed. A facade. A game. A job. Now that the job is done, I have no idea who I am beyond all the things I had to become.

New York is a new chapter. One that will be entirely my own. No job. No one who tells me what to do. No one who knows me. And what better way is there to explore yourself than studying and meeting new people? So when I enroll for an Undergrad Degree, I know exactly one thing: This will be my time. And I won’t let anyone disrupt me. But the thing with plans is, they rarely turn out as expected. So when I meet my professor in behavioral neurocience and save her from an attack, I do what I have always done: Pretend to be someone I am not.

Jane McKenzie

Born into a family of renowned doctors, my path was set by them, and I, of course, followed it : I studied hard, researched, focused only on success in life, and became the greatest version of myself, someone my parents can be proud of. Award-winning neuroscientist for my groundbreaking research on developing a predictive model of criminal behavior was only the first step, before I was appointed the youngest professor at an Ivy League University, at the sweet age if thirty-three.

I have clear rules, and those rules are the most important thing in my life, because they ensure my image. The image I built and have to uphold at all costs. I don’t do messy. I don’t do complicated. And least of all, I do students. But when a certain student walks into my class and saves me from a man, everything I hold dearly shatters into pieces. She takes my control. Makes me bend my rules. And worst of all, she makes me lose myself. In her. Something that cannot happen. Ever.

Tropes / TW‘s:

Professor x Student
Control Freak x Backbone
Fake Dating
Stalking
Only one bed
Why Choose (FF & FFF)
Age Gap (10 years)
Fake Identity
Kinky
Sprinkle of the tism
Dubious Consent
Light BDSM
Punishment
HEA, but will wreck you before
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