Control Me by Michelle Heard

I wanted to be a painter. But that’s just a dream because a mafia princess doesn’t get to choose her future.
Still, I never let it get me down. I always try to make the best of everything.
Until I’m forced to go for brutal training, and I meet Nikolai Vetrov.
Forbidden and way too attractive, the man turns out to be my worst nightmare incarnated.
He’s cold and ruthless, and I’m pretty sure there’s no heart to be found in his chest, unlike mine that won’t stop beating overtime at the mere sight of him.
Just because I flirted with him, he’s dead set on making my life as miserable as possible.
And as if the hell I’ve been thrown into isn’t enough, the worst thing possible happens to me. It strips me of my light and drops me into a darkness so suffocating there’s no way for me to escape
There’s a lot I can endure and overcome, but the trauma and Nikolai Vetrov are two things I can’t handle. One of them is bound to be the end of me.
Unless a miracle happens, and let’s face it, I’m well past the point of believing in miracles.