Blue by Carmen Wilder
I’m twenty-one years old and I don’t know how to stop loving him.
That’s the problem.
Because Cassian was never meant to be loved like this.
He was the boy next door.
The one who climbed through my window in the middle of the night.
The one I gave everything to—without ever asking for anything back.
And he took it.
All of it.
Piece by piece, year by year, until there was nothing left of me that wasn’t his.
We grew up tangled together—
in grief, in silence, in things we never said out loud.
In a love that didn’t feel like love anymore, but something darker.
Something that held on tighter the more it hurt.
I knew he would ruin me.
I let him anyway.
Because some people don’t just break your heart—
they become a part of you.
And even after everything…
even after the damage, the distance, the years of trying to survive what we were,
I would still open the window.
Every single time.
Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Dedication
TRIGGER WARNINGS
Contents
PROLOGUE
CHAPTER ONE
CHAPTER TWO
CHAPTER THREE
CHAPTER FOUR
CHAPTER FIVE
CHAPTER SIX
CHAPTER SEVEN
CHAPTER EIGHT
CHAPTER NINE
CHAPTER TEN
CHAPTER ELEVEN
CHAPTER TWELVE
CHAPTER THIRTEEN
CHAPTER FOURTEEN
CHAPTER FIFTEEN
CHAPTER SIXTEEN
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
CHAPTER EIGHTEEN
CHAPTER NINETEEN
CHAPTER TWENTY
CHAPTER TWENTY-ONE
CHAPTER TWENTY-TWO
CHAPTER TWENTY-THREE
CHAPTER TWENTY-FOUR
CHAPTER TWENTY-FIVE
CHAPTER TWENTY-SIX
CHAPTER TWENTY-SEVEN
CHAPTER TWENTY-EIGHT
CHAPTER TWENTY-NINE
CHAPTER THIRTY
CHAPTER THIRTY-ONE
CHAPTER THIRTY-TWO
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
CHAPTER THIRTY-FOUR
EPILOGUE
ALSO BY CARMEN WILDER
THANK YOU
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